on the other side of the wall

kashi-->munger-->rikhia-->munger-->rikhia-->munger-->rikhia-->munger-->rikhia--> kashi!

5 months in the ashrams. ganga darshan and rikhia peeth in jharkhand.

it's so hard to know what to write. perhaps i'll write more about what actually happened in a few days when i'm settled more. all i can say for now is that i'm happier than i can remember being for a very long time. i feel light, like a little child. i am so grateful for everything that i have experienced: the good, the bad and the inexplicably weird and unpredictable as well. i feel like i'm coming home with a trunk full of jewels that i need to protect fiercely. i have the sensation that i didn't FIND something (we always want to FIND something- happiness, peace, ourselves) but rather that i have been given the tools for searching. and glimpses of things to inspire the search.

so i'll try to come up with more on the ashram soon.

for now i'm relaxing in beloved varanasi and will be meeting my old friend gael here in a few days!