sometimes things are not as they seem
ujjain--> delhi (via jaipur, one night stop to have a famous lassi)
sometimes, they are exactly as they seem.
i have left ujjain, the ashram and all of the plans i was making for the next five years of my life. i am sorry, as i cannot give you the reason for this, due to a promise to a very dear friend.
suffice is to say- humans are very confusing creatures. truth seems to be such a difficult thing for us. and if this existence is maya, how can we expect anything but maya from it? if we seek truth, we must not look for it on a human level. i am not being cynical exactly... if you knew what i knew then maybe you could understand. as i cannot tell you these things, just take what i say with some seriousness.
ujjain is a wonderful place, and i hope that the malaria project has nothing but success. i am sorry to not be a part of it, but it would have been a hypocrisy for me to continue there. it would have my own selfish grasping, not wanting to give up such a good opportunity. maybe i have made a mistake, maybe i am crazy, but my heart feels good. i have had some very good lessons in the past few months.
i arrived in delhi today and felt so happy. maybe because this once loomed like a big monster city to me, and now it is familiar in some way. i love it when i get to see someone ride an escalator for the first time in their life. this happens often at the very modern metro station and usually involves a lot of shouting and chaos as the terrified individual tries to take a leap of faith onto this strange contraption. monsoon has hit here and the tunnels and sideroads are all under water.
i'm going north now- to the golden temple and then the himalayas. i need to breathe some fresh air into my soul and bathe in a few sacred rivers before they flow south and are filled with garbage and excrement.
i will be returning to canada on schedule (july 6th i think it is). i need to see the people i love. however, i will return to india soon, but this time with a plan. my heart is on fire and i need find the proper fuel to feed it with.
om namah shivaya
sometimes, they are exactly as they seem.
i have left ujjain, the ashram and all of the plans i was making for the next five years of my life. i am sorry, as i cannot give you the reason for this, due to a promise to a very dear friend.
suffice is to say- humans are very confusing creatures. truth seems to be such a difficult thing for us. and if this existence is maya, how can we expect anything but maya from it? if we seek truth, we must not look for it on a human level. i am not being cynical exactly... if you knew what i knew then maybe you could understand. as i cannot tell you these things, just take what i say with some seriousness.
ujjain is a wonderful place, and i hope that the malaria project has nothing but success. i am sorry to not be a part of it, but it would have been a hypocrisy for me to continue there. it would have my own selfish grasping, not wanting to give up such a good opportunity. maybe i have made a mistake, maybe i am crazy, but my heart feels good. i have had some very good lessons in the past few months.
i arrived in delhi today and felt so happy. maybe because this once loomed like a big monster city to me, and now it is familiar in some way. i love it when i get to see someone ride an escalator for the first time in their life. this happens often at the very modern metro station and usually involves a lot of shouting and chaos as the terrified individual tries to take a leap of faith onto this strange contraption. monsoon has hit here and the tunnels and sideroads are all under water.
i'm going north now- to the golden temple and then the himalayas. i need to breathe some fresh air into my soul and bathe in a few sacred rivers before they flow south and are filled with garbage and excrement.
i will be returning to canada on schedule (july 6th i think it is). i need to see the people i love. however, i will return to india soon, but this time with a plan. my heart is on fire and i need find the proper fuel to feed it with.
om namah shivaya
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