what i felt today

time and again, the same lesson. when will i learn it?

i will skip the particulars of this lesson because they are somewhat irrelevant. the heart of what i want to say, and maybe am starting to know, is this:

YOU DON'T NEED TO JUDGE ANYONE.

my mind often becomes confused about people's actions, and that is because it is impossible to fully know someone else's heart. i am only scratching the surface of my own. i always thought my emotions were so deep, so full, so unique. i now see them as little more than the spasms, the splashes of a drowning man on the surface of a great ocean.

there is enough poison in this world without me brewing more in my own heart. besides, how can you be angry at a symbol? a symbol is only what the mind makes it to be.

so let the constant reformulations of this existence bring what they will. real love, bhakti, is a fluid thing. it can't be kept in a jar. it needs to splash and slosh all over the place, unabashedly, wontonly, drunkenly.